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The Crossover Sagas: OOC & Character Signup Thread

Could I have all your renders and songs through PM in case I lose them? Thanks guys.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home

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Lol I'm dying.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Playground

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I seriously need help...

Rainbow☁Dash said: ↑

*Trigger warning to those with depression/suicidal tendencies/or anything else*

Alright, this is like my second thread this year, almost weeks apart, but I need some help. Like seriously... anything.

Most of you know I've been struggling with depression for the longest time, and also suicidal thoughts and tendencies. Those of you who don't know, sorry you have to find out this way... Maka is not all happiness and giggles all the time like she seems to be.

Most of you know I went to see tummer after his heart transplant. I worked through my anxieties, got on the bus at like 9pm at night, came to LA at like 2am when it was the scariest, and I was just fine. I met his family for the first time, was in a totally different world for the next couple of days, and I was okay with it all. I even ended up staying with tummer in the same hospital room after two days of being with his family, and was able to work through the stress. I felt so good about myself. My mom told me that my neighbor was impressed with me and my courage to do this kind of thing (cause this was a big thing for me to do), and then it started to go downhill...

Tummer, if you read this, remember this is not your fault. This is SO NOT YOUR FAULT, okay?

After the third/fourth day of staying with him, my mom called me up and kind of threw things at me that got me all concerned. She told me not to get attached to tummer while I was with him, that it was bad of me to watch scary movies with him (cause it was Halloween) because of my suicidal tendencies and being diagnosed with depression. That kind of shot my confidence, and I felt like I was doing the wrong thing. Then she called me up and said it was okay for me to do what I was doing and to stick around with him.

Long story short, my parents kept calling me and telling me not to get attached to tummer. I felt like a bad person, like I was doing the wrong thing, and then my dad was saying stuff to scare me to get me home. Like if I didn't come home by next Monday, something bad was going to happen. And I just felt so depressed, so disappointed in myself, because I told my parents I was going to stay with him till this Saturday... but they heard the last Saturday that just past and told me I needed to come home or else.

That's where I exploded and put my foot down and told them to make arrangements themselves with tummer's parents to bring me home because there was still a lot of medical stress happening before he was to be released from the hospital. Even though I was able to do that, I couldn't stand up to them and say I wanted to stay longer. The anxiety that something bad was going to happen was already in my head, and that I was a bad girl for holding hands and getting close to him.

There was points during the stay where the suicidal thoughts started to rush back. Like there was times I wished I just would have carried out those times where I was seriously close to ending my life. I broke down in front of tummer a couple of times, and I felt so awful for it.

I'm begging, I'm pleading for some kind of comfort, help, someone to actually talk to voice to voice on Skype. It's been two days since I've been home, and I've been such a mess.

Yesterday I cried so hard I went to bed early... like at 5pm. I dunno who to talk to, I dunno who to reach out to, and I don't know if anyone cares or if they want to hear me out. There's so many friends I made on here in the past, but most of them don't speak to me or are too busy with their own lives.

I'm tired of this depression. It hurts, it really does. And I feel like such a pity party, and I hate that too. It feels like my parents use it against me to keep me under their control, and then they stress me out by saying I need to freaking get a job already and get out there in the real world... And I feel like I'm not functional enough to.

Most days I feel like I just want to sleep and hopefully it would all just go away. I'm on medication, but it's not helping anymore. And I'm afraid to go on stronger medications because my body is so sensitive to the side effects. I just want to scream. I wanna be my happy self again you guys knew, that you guys enjoyed. I don't want to be like this. I don't even feel like being on the computer much today the depression is so bad. I don't want to go back to the hospital because of these suicidal thoughts... I really don't. It scared me so badly, I don't want to go back. I just don't want to be like this anymore... I need help. I need someone to talk to me. I'm too afraid to reach out to you guys and ask for help because I'm afraid I wore you out already, you would judge me, or tell me to freaking get over with it already and it's so hard to explain to people that this is a disease. This is a disorder. You can't get over with it over night, and it's just... hard.

Please help... anyone. Please... I'm begging you...
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Ooohhhhh Maka! You're not a bad person! You did a good thing by going to see Tummer. Send me a Skype request and we'll talk on there later, okay?

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: Help with Life

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DarkTraitor said: ↑

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Lawl

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Playground

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call out thread

Come on Ben, not again.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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OBAMA CELEBREATION THREAD!!!!!!!!

psychedelic said: ↑

I'm pretty sure the Republican party is going to try to call for as many recounts as their hearts desire.
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I'm already seeing links to petitions against Obama all over Facebook.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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OBAMA CELEBREATION THREAD!!!!!!!!

Laurence_Fox said: ↑

You posted this in two threads why?
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Because I can.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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Election thread.

My timeline be lookin like
Obama
Obama
Obama
**** Romney
Obama
Obama
And some girl talking about being lonely

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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OBAMA CELEBREATION THREAD!!!!!!!!

My timeline be lookin like
Obama
Obama
Obama
*** Romney
Obama
Obama
And some girl talking about being lonely

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 7, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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The Crossover Sagas: OOC & Character Signup Thread

Myst said: ↑

I see what you did there.
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Do you really?

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home

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Election thread.

DarkTraitor said: ↑

Ron Jeremy for president.
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KAMINA FOR PRESIDENT

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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The Crossover Sagas: OOC & Character Signup Thread

Reserving Snow White and GoldyLocks (RWBY)

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home

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Election thread.

Ash, make the guest beds.

I'm heading up there.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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~Crossover Cove: OOC Thread 2.0~

Bushy Brow said: ↑

ADFGHH

FUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

Wish I didn't show you that until I reserved her now. I was going to reserve her.
*sigh*
Goddammit.
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^This feel so many times.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home

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Election thread.

Vote Obama people. Don't make this generation clean up another mess.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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this is what disney is doing with Star Wars

Yatogami said: ↑

i'm not even THAT big of a Star Wars fan and this kills me
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>_>

I'm dead

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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So my friend said he thinks Assassin's Creed sucks

He has no taste in games. AT ALL

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone

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~Crossover Cove: OOC Thread 2.0~

DarkTraitor said: ↑

I'll do an N theme to go with it. Or Steven Stone. Prefer N though.

Also reserving

Moundo
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Do it. That'd be awesome.

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home

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~Crossover Cove: OOC Thread 2.0~

HeartlessOfLight said: ↑

Guess I'll take Ruby if nobody else wants him. Unless I've got too many trainers as well, that is.
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Coolness, thanks bro.

You know, now Ifeel like doing a Cynthia theme to match your Lance Theme...

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home

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~Crossover Cove: OOC Thread 2.0~

I've decided, and I'll be taking Lebreau and Zant as well.

Could someone take Ruby/Brendan? I'd like to have him, but DT said I have every other Pokémon Trainer a while go, so that's why I'm asking

Post by: Hiro ✩, Nov 6, 2012 in forum: Retirement Home