Zane had pulled on his pants when Zee knocked and opened the door, "Breakfast is ready." his eyes widened at Mya and suddenly Zane stood in his view, "Looking at something, Zee?" he growled.
Yeah I'm an idiot for bringing this back up. I haven't tried again and life's been pretty good. Though my dark room has been getting kind of crowded but I did make the mistake of isolating myself again; it's not fun in here but if I leave I'm horribly afraid of what'll happen. Ok the real reason why I've brought this back up...I can't stop myself from remembering this. Everyother thought I have is 'why did I do it?' 'would it have been worth it?' There's a source of the voice that told me it is. I want to find the source. It's just a little too easy to imagine doing it again. Before I snapped, it was nearly impossible to think about such a thing without recoiling and gagging until I was sick. Now...it doesn't bother me, it doesn't even faze me. It can't be because I already tried. Just a few weeks ago, I still flinched when the thought returned. It's gone now, and something made it go away. Everything is harder. My thoughts are fleeting faster than before. I know I have a touch of short term memory loss or something like it from my father's side of my DNA. It takes a long time to regain those thoughts. I don't need help with this........and I can't remember why I brought it up now. This causes school to be incredibly difficult. Can it be that this is the way I'm supposed to be told something? The only damn thought that returns to my head is suicide. I'm strongly against taking pills but my parents want to put me on anit-depressants. Pills can't be the answer....I don't know what I was hoping for from this, maybe just a little advice on how to handle it.
Hey, you don't have to worry about me. I get it, work comes first, it's a good moral and even the job I have (though I don't even get paid...religious crap) comes first for me. I digress. Though cause of the timezones I thankfully have the time to get it done to talk. I understand we won't have a lot of time to talk. :) I'm not goin' anywhere. I agree with everyone else, Kay-cee obviously has a problem and you should find out what it is. Then proceed from there. You ever wanna talk, you can talk to me.
yea hey that's good to hear. I'm...not doin so good to be honest. I'm probably having a relapse. :(
I'm depressed...and I don't know why. Apparently not enough to cry or even do anything about it. What can I do?
Zain diverted away from the orphanage and headed toward the lake close to the school. Pulling his guitar from up in a tree, he stummed it and smiled. "Still sounds good. Hey, Orphan, what do you think?" Orphan hissed and he got the image of a flat sign. Scowling he thought back, "It is not flat."
Zain stood, piled his books back in his bag and left the school. Passing by Yuki and Sakuya. He gave them a small smile and a wave. Walking down the street toward the orphanage.
Yeah I love the scary levels too but this hand has scary music to go with it and it spikes every time it gets too close to the Sol. You can't...
A girl touched his hair and Zain glared at her, "Don't touch me." She flinched and drew back. His purple eyes were oddities in his family of brown eyed parents. He wasn't listening to the teacher as class progressed and Orphan hissed at him.
Zain ignored the girls that had flocked around him before the class started. "Is your hair really that color? Wow, you're so cute!" He looked over and caught Yuki's brief glance and tugged off his blazer. He hated uniforms. His plain white shirt bore the emblem of a snake, despite what the schools was and was open at the neck.
Zain grumbled to himself and walked into the classroom. Almost everyone stopped what they were doing and stared up at him. He offered them a smile and scratched his head of purple hair. Having sided against dying it to a normal looking color, he realized how much it made him stand out. He slumped into a seat by the window, away from everyone else.
Name: Zain Menloe Age: 18 Appearance: Bio: A normal guy in school with the usual problems. His life became hectic when he discovered his persona powers and suddenly more people noticed him. Choosing to reside in shadows wasn't working out anymore and training became difficult with girls from school hanging off him. An orphan in secret, he raised himself with the image of his parents as his only comfort. He enjoys playing his guitar when he's alone, though most of the time he isn't alone when he plays. Persona: Orphan http://shindds.free.fr/p3/rangees/Death/Samael.png Element: Darkness and wind Summoning style: folds and rips a tarot card with a serpent on it. Weapon: Lance with an engraved serpent curling around it. Occupation: student
He pulled back and rolled off her, "C'mon Mya, we've gotta head out."
Lightning jerked and caught the woman before she could fall, "You should've stayed in bed." she scolded and soaked in the other bits of information she'd given them, "The Eden Elevator...neither PSICOM nor the Guardian Corps will allow them to get through. Eden is guarded the most in all of Cocoon." She dismissed all else said then, "We should check it out. If Eden is in danger, PSICOM and the Guardian Corps may not be enough to stop all those Crystal l'Cie." Light hated leaving before anyone was properly trained, but maybe the trip would be enough to push everyone enough to be stronger...like Hope had. She shook her head, clearing the memories. This woman who reminded her of Serah, obviously knew more about the Crystal l'Cie than she looked. "Who are you?" Akira ran as fast as she could, away from Oerba. She noticed something following her. Turning sharply she almost caught a glance of it. "I have a bad feeling about this." She pulled out her gunblade from its sheath and held it at her side, ready.
He chuckled low in his throat and stared into her eyes, "Out of love, you say?" He had a bad feeling his love for her would get them killed or worse. To refrain from saying something he didn't want to, he kissed her.
Aw you're missing out on one good movie. tsk tsk, so why are you sitting under a tree? Another outdoors nap?
Y'know the movie Australia. it's a really good movie.
Curled up on my couch watching Australia.
Hey, what's up?
He watched her with amusement, "A sleeping habit of biting people? Well at least you didn't take a huge bite out of me." he laughed and bent his head to kiss her neck.
