He'll get fireworks and throw them at his dogs.
Lets start with the adopted......I have a friend whos adopted by his own grandparents and well his family is really confusing to the point that I don't even get >.> but he feels bad about it sometimes and I've been telling him don't worry about it your parents loved you very much but they couldn't take care of you so they gave you to their parents.....but the problem is he's getting a some what negative influence from them which is scary when he picks on his dogs.
True but even so I don't want to lose any friends, family, or myself.
Lets see where to start...we've got the abused, adopted, and people like me.
Yup and I just can't stand hurting people emotionally and physically. Thats hard in some places but I'm sure I can fix a few.
Lets see everyone close to me and myself.
Welll just hearing my friend saying "I forgive you" is helping but seriously that doesn't fix the broken hearts I've been dealing with.
This was just yesterday I've got other crap i'm trying to workout now.
Working on it over the computer right now but my friend I scared forgives me so thats ok but doesn't change alot.
Shes already angry with me for fighting back at the dude and I didn't mean to but I was a jerk over the phone. I know and I feel awful about it today but I can't just let him beat up on her.
1. I really can't stand hurting people but the dude was just asking for it 2. I scared the living crap out of a close friend 3. I made another friend real angry over the phone last night
Alright heres one of the things bugging me today: I made two friends angry by defending one from a dude who is just cruel.....he was beating up my friend then he comes upand starts beating me, so I thought the right thing to do was to mess this guy up so my elbow just slams into his ribs cuasing a HUGE LOUD crack (it was just horrifing) then I punched the dude in his nose so now he's on the ground and my friend who orginally was getting beat was very scared....at first she gave me a weird stare of fear then she screamed and ran off.....so there goes a friend screaming off leaving me here with the dude I just messed up....I waited till he got back up but all he said "nice eye" then I realized I have a black eye.....so we had a long talk about how he needs to think in better ways so he doesn't hurt people again.....cuz he knows I will come after him again......we went to 61 stop and got some ice packs and walked out and decided to continue this tomorrow......but when I got home and my friend called me and asked "WHAT DID YOU DO NOW?" then she started getting after meh then after 5 min. it was ackward silence and talking....but then I was feeling real angry having to deal with the guy so I randomly start getting after her for no reason then from there her mom called and she had to hang up....right now i'm saying sorry to both of them....1 over the phone....the other on computer.
Some of that could work but I'd need a quiet place to do it. aight I'll tell you some but I gotta fix some options so kh-v doesn't log me off right away. That just kinda makes me feel funny and angry at the same time.
Thats the big problamo cuz you really do have to be in my shoes to understand.
My anger problem and if you look at the past 2-3 posts it explains my anger problem.
Well I decided to share one thing that I've been bottling up from everyone >.>
Punching only fuels the anger and I punch anything that comes to site....mainly walls....and I do it till my knuckles bleed...when i'm infurated I just can't stop till my arms/legs give out.
Smart man I like your thinking.
I tend to smile more but if i'm just sitting like now i'm neither frowning or smiling. But my problem is that i'm to reckless to be calmed down easliy....so I can't take a deep breath or beat my fists together.
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