i woke up ready to kill myself. so... yeah, its that bad. i cant do rejection again. my big, soft, teddy bear heart cant handle it anymore.
thanks. i just still cant believe this is happening. this is litterally what my worst nightmare was.
*writes this s*** down* omg this is good.
that's sexy.
i did. i think someone else is telling her things. she called me "clingy" and "latchy". im sorry, but under the idea of being "friends", i think im allowed to question and be upset about not getting any attention and not being treated like a friend. i told her: "Maybe if you actually included me, or talked to me, or treated me like you do everyone else, maybe i'd stop looking so "clingy"." i cant keep this up guys. if i lose her as a friend for real, i dont know what i would do. bad things would happen to me.
yes. im friends with her cousin too. and SHE even pays more atention to me and my feelings. she is mean to me half the time, and most definately doesnt have feelings for me, but still seems to care more then the one i like.
ive done that already. there was another point where she didnt give me any attention before, and i told her. she seemed to care, but its happening again.
That's right, Mah Boy.
no .
1. no 2. NO! 3. im not laughing.
you dont understand. this happened before with another girl, and the current one helped me, and promised she wouldnt do this.
i dare to be different.
depressed .
not really. but she says we're friends. she doesnt treat me like it at all. she treats almost everyone else better then me. the onlt possible way for me to get her attention is to talk to her myself. she knows i like her. we've talked. we know that we're just friends, but i feel like she classified me as a complete nobody. this only hurts because she is one of my closest friends.
;~; ;~; ;~; ;~;
THAT'S SEXlST AGAINST LESBIANS. *SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT*
The girl i like, one of the most important of my friends, claims she's my friend. she ignores me more then anything. ive been miserable this whole week. everyone but her noticed and cared.
thank you.
*insert heart glue here* ;~;
hard to believe that entirely, its gonna be one LONG tunnel ;~;
