I was refering to Repter... but aight....
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly. in order.
Why didnt this end here?
:) She wouldn't. she feels guilty as hell when she thinks she did something wrong. True, i did consider that. But she said that i always look kinda sad. But honestly, i didnt look a "little" sad. I looked depressed and was crying in every class. My mother says it'll make me a strong man. I actually fear it'll destroy my life, drive me insane. But i also realized, when i fear something, or think of something as one way, it usually ends up being that way. it makes me wonder if i forced myself to be very positive, then it will be a happy ending.
I hope so. It was and still is my literal worst nightmare. No joke, i had a nightmare about losing her and i woke up crying. I dont think she'll let herself crush me... That's the problem, i have been for months, im always concerned. (she's a very stressed person) And the one time i was upset... no shoulder to cry on, no "Are you okay?", no nothing. everyone but her DID do those things. that bothered me. I hate being this sesnsitive. I take things too seriously and my heart breaks too fast. I even have a hard time getting over things like hearbreak, and even good things, like a crush. I cant get over them in a week. Which is why rejection hurts more then it should to me.
no. its worth more then $10...
everything after "My Theory:" wasnt said to anyone. but i never took a crack at it. All i really want is to feel she cares. i dont care about a relationship right now. but no, im afraid im not going anywhere for a year or two now.
And this friend of yours is not gonna live for more then another hour or two. I'm pretty sure Misty and Wolfie are on it.
no, i was overreacting. you see, i thought she was ignoring me, which she wasnt. after i overreacted about that in an argument, we got into how sensitive i am and how easily i will get scared and hurt from the last time my heart was broken. (different girl. This one now helped me through it.) I was afraid of losing her as a friend, so i over did alot of things. She said to me, after clearifying that she wasnt trying to be mean, that if im this sensitive, then i'll get ripped apart in life later. which is true. then i said how i knew that and told her that maybe i should be punnished because ive lost it alot with her, and it got worse every time. and then i said "forget that" in a new message, and was about to tell answer her question, "Why do i make it bigger then it is." The answer to that is in the "You'll get torn apart in life later if you're this sensitive." She cut me off there instead of asking what it was that i found out. My theory: I am afraid of losing a friend like her. I make a big deal out of it. I'm too sensitive for life in the real world of my future. What does this show? What did she forget? That in order for me to survive in the real world, i need friends like her. i need all the support i can get. She says that i have alot of friends. (this was before my theory was existant) What did she forget? She's one of them. but she cut me off before i could explain, and im not arguing with it anymore...
not exactly... more like didnt let me explain, said it was out of control, and told me to pretend like it never happened.
i must admit i was upset at first, but when the black and white one moved the marble and KO'd both of them, i had to laugh.
lol thanks. i need a nap ;~;
and Emilee loved you...
so me and her are still "friends". its not bad, but i snse ALOT of hidden negativity. and my heart is still very sore...
OBJECTION! i just wanted to try that...
*cough* *cough* Riiiiiiiiiiight....
ja ja. imma beast.
* porquoi
yes, sometimes, but it didnt "not" work. it just didnt go 100% perfect. it still worked... kinda... when i said she brushed it off, i mean the way i was behaving.
nothing too bad, but i feel so tired now. she seems to have brushed it off... again... so im afraid i'll freak out again. i keep doing this and gets worse every time. i think i need some discipline or some kind of segregation from her. but other then that, it exausted me.
