aww...I have a sore throat...get well soon!!!
"Xathabat your feelings count..." said Roxas as a tear escaped, "Axel and Xion are to caught in eachother to even notice if I was dead." Roxas froze for a second as she pulled up his selvee, "I would have died...but Mixtsuki saved me I was laying on the ground covered in blood, I passed out because I lost to much blood that night..." said Roxas softly and quietly, he looked down hideing his face from Xathabat because he was crying, "That night I woke up in her house...She stabed my broken arm and then my leg...and then she stabbed herself, she killed herself so I hopefully wonldn't kill myself... but when she died it made me want to kill myself more" said Roxas.
Kairi sat down in the chair that was a cross from him. She looked at the sky then. She sighed seeing that the fanclub was back. "They are back..." said Kairi annoyed.
"yeah....that may be a good Idea." said Kairi smileing she then grabed sota's hand. "Let's get going."
What about you? I'm also counting down the days until my birthday...14 days!!!!
Nothing really just writeing a story.
"Yeah, maybe. I started coughing up blood once me and Mixtsuki broke up, that was the day I tired to kill myself...she hated me for tring to kill myself so thats why she wanted to kill me herself...I was fine with that until I met Xion...but now I wish she would have killed me, it did go away for a while, but...I just resently tried to kill my self." said Roxas he looked at the ground not sure if he should have told her this, he pulled his sleeves to make sure they were over his wraists, but the one was cover up with a cast so it was fine. He put his one hand that had the cast on over the other wraist and winced. He remebered recently when he was stabbed. "She tried killing me a day ago..." said Roxas fighting back tears, "but instead of me dieing she did...she should have lived...i should have been the one to die."
I'm good, it's been a while since we last talked...:D
"yeah..." said Kairi she hugged Sota,"I like you too." She then freed him of her hug. She looked into sota's eyes.
hello how are you?
"there is no nedd to worry." said Roxas, "I've been going trought this for at least five or six years, it's been happening to me since i tried to kill myself." He had never told anyone that he tried to kill himself before, he was afraid of what people would say.
Roxas winced, "The pain comes and goes as it pleases," said Roxas he smiled at Xathabat, "Talking about pain, it's going away."
"Xathabat, your not helpless, no one can help me right now..." said Roxas, "And Xathabat, just talking to you cheers me up...because you understand what I'm going through, you understand how it is being so hard on yourself...you are helping me also, because you are by my side talking to me, your like the sister I never had."
OOC: Have a good night also! Roxas looked at Demyx as he was laid on the bed. "Demyx those won't work I've already tired...I tried everything and nothing will work." said Roxas laying in bed finally the blood stopped along with the fire in his stomach. He then looked at Xathabat, "It's fine, it's not your fault." said Roxas, "and your not helpless..."
Roxas walked into Axel's room, "your invisable to them huh..." said Roxas thoughtfully, "Axel you would never be invisable to me, so don't think of me like you thank of them. I feel like I'm trapped in the castle also. Thats why I tried to run, but it didn't work because of those dang reterivers."
"Well..." said Roxas winceing in pain as blood came out of his mouth, "Trying to help me by what makeing me angry?" Roxas continued to cough, he threw up more and more blood. "I should have died long ago...long ago,when me and mitsuki first fought...when I didn't want to live anymore."
"I doing fine, and I'm feeling alot better." said Roxas he noticed there was something wrong, He looked ath his friend"Axel, what's wrong? What's on your mind?"
Roxas pulled his sleves down makeing sure they covered his wrists. He was fighting back tears. "She just...she went through my memories and I think she saw something I never wanted her to see or hear about, I did something that she may hate me for..." He then fell over on to his side, the fire in his stomach was back. His face became ghostly white he began coughing violently, he couldn't sit up, so he rolled onto his stomach useing his elbows to hold himself up. His forehead was still on the ground, but the rest of his face wasn't. He then felt something comeing up his throat, it was blood, he could tell by the taste of it.
"Xathabat...Demyx loves you and you love Him, you guys need eachother...and Demyx and I need you more than you know...If you weren't here Demyx would have been lonely when all of us left." said Roxas he looked at Xathabat. "Then explain to me what they were talking about the night I left? Weren't they talk about if they loved someone before?" Roxas knew what Demyx would say, "It's not like I care anymore though, because the love I had for Xion is long gone, just because of the one thing she did."
"Xathabat, If I leave you should stay with Demyx. He needs you more then me, just saying that because I saw you to kiss. it more dangerous for you to walk around alone." said Roxas, "If I leave it would only be for an hour or so...I would always come back to you and Demyx, since you guys are like family to me, I once saw Axel as a brother but now...but now I don't even know." Roxas sat down he put his head in his hands, his head throbbing all the pain began comeing back, the fire in his stomach would come back soon also, and that meant the horrible taste of blood would soon come back also. "I just can't trust Axel and Xion anymore."
