"...Familly? That's bad....well....at least you had one....I grew up on the streets. I was unwanted...." I said. I grew silent for a few moments. "...Why did you kill them?" I asked.
"Why? Have you killed your friends, too?" I asked him. I stared at the ground, glaring. I just couldn't get the memory out of my mind...
"....I killed them with my selfishness. They didn't want to try to bring that....that thing....into this world....and yet I made them.....and now they are dead...." I said, slowly and quietly. I hung my head with shame and sorrow, a few more tears slipping down my cheeks. "....I hate what I have done...."
I closed my eyes. Sorrow and shame swept over me, like a wave of water. "....I killed them. All of them...." I said. I felt a tear slip down my cheek. I hated what I had done...
I smiled, a dangerous, light smile. "And I....I am ment for the dark. You have no idea what I've done...." I said darkly. I wasn't happy about it. More like trying to push the guy away. I figured it would be best to be by myself, so I figured fear was a good option. It's true that my past was horrible, though. I don't deserve this second chance...
"I've always been alone, and I learned not to fight it. I've been that way all my life. I tried to be with people, and in the end..." I couldn't say it. "..It didn't go so well. So I won't fight Fate, anymore. It either wants me to be with others, or to be sitting alone in Darkness." I said. I wanted badly to be with others, but I couldn't. I knew that...
I heard sopmebody call to me. I stood up, and faced him. "As long as Xensoa loves Nebx. Maybe forever. I know I don't belong anywhere, though." I replied. It bwas the dead honest truth, in my eyes, too...
I was sitting in the chair, just starring at the tall towering buildings. I felt miserable, even though I was alone. Why? Wasn't I supposed to be alone? Wasn't I supposed to be happy alone?? Maybe....I just can't be happy at all....
I walked down the halls and up the stairs untill I reached the roof. I took a seat on a chair that was up there, and stared over the dark city. The Town Thet Never Was. I was alone, and that made me smile. Even if being alone is bad, and...empty feeling, you have no conflicts by being alone, right? So that made being alone good....at least in the sense that I didn't have to deal with others by being alone...
After a while, I awoke, slowly opening my eyes. I was staring at the wall of my room. I sat up in the bed, and rubbed my eye. '...What now? I mean, should I even stay here, anymore? I feel a bit unwanted...' I thought. It was always that way. I never fit in, no matter what. Even as a Nobody, I don't fit in. I was used to it, though. Since it's always been that way. I got up out of bed, and slipped my hoody on, zipping it up. I then walked to the door, and opened it, and slowly shut it. I then headed down the hall, hoping to find some lonely place. I wished to be alone, since being around others only seems to bring me sorrow...
I continued walking down the halls, untill I reached my room. I opened the door, walked in, and slammed it WIKED loudly behind myself. I then walked over to my bed, and took off my hoody. I placed it on one of my bed's posts, and laid down. I didn't really care that I forgot my hot chocolate. I laid there, untill I fell asleep...
I was still tense. I hated that feeling. I sighed, a long, deep sigh. I then stood up, and walked over to the door. "I'll be in my room. Alone. Don't bother me." I said to Nebx. I didn't care if he was my Superior, or if he was my servent. I wanted him to leave me to be alone. I walked out of the room, and slowly stalked down the hall.
I was unsure of what to say. I sighed. "Whatever..." I said. I turned my head twords the wall, arms crossed. I was kinda upset....
"....Well....I can understand why...." I said. I felt sad and tense. I stopped tapping my figners, and dropped my hand from the table. I shifted a little, feeling a bit uncomfortable.
"....What's with the tone of your voice? You would rather be with her, right now?" I asked him, expecting he would. I stared tapping my left hand's fingers on the table slowly, unable to resist my nervous habit.
"Ohh....but what about....Xensoa..?" I asked, sadly and quietly, my voice almost unable to say her name. I looked down at the table, avoiding eye contact with Nebx.
I watched Nebx take the seat beside me. "Umm....what are you doing here?" I asked him, quietly.
I watched the doors, and saw Nebx walk inside. I was a bit unsure of how to react. "Umm....hey, Nebx...." I said quietly. I really was a bit nervous.
......This was very blunt, and courageous to say. Don't kill me....*hides*
....I'd hang out with my friends and familly and spend time with them and probably have to calm some of them, come on KH-Vids to see all the epic threads about the world ending and such, I'd pray one last time, then I'd go to bed and sleep untill the end comes...
