.....the site that started as a cheese roll with only profiles/descriptions, and pictures. if you wanted to talk, you had to leave comments to each other below a photo...... www.cheeseroll.com they have what, hundreds of thousands of members.... ten percent of which have only kingdom hearts cheese. another 4 percent have KH cheese that they are not longer young enough to use. and another 5 percent have kingdom hearts sausages as "back up only", becuase they now have several cheeses, and they have already rolled their KH cheese at many conventions. ........ its so bad out there, that people have resorted to posting their cheese on various sites,and then trying to hunt down other people to meet with. as one looks funny alone,and a group just looks much better. some sadpeople post pics of people they took photos of, but cannot track down.... http://www.cheese-rolling.co.uk/images/2010/103_0345.JPG if one needs some serious mind changing,at how "cheese rolling" is not for "little dairy farming kiddies" but is now also a majorpart of dance parties at nightclubs. the cheese rolling just adds flair. like the bar at dragoncon that has cheddar bouncers, and a Wensleydale bartender/vending machine. (no,not kidding) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOyQBSMeIhM dressing up random cheese: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzMYYk9OIwU&feature=relmfu so this is a vids site with a forum eh? perhaps you could find/make/upload a really good 60 second clip of a welldone fanfiction, actedout with some practical special cheese and really well done rolling. its worth doing such a thing just to see peoples posted reactions. (esp.if they think it is a leaked teaser for a movie in the works) moar funz plz.
I'm scared of going clothes shopping. Literally, I won't even go in the shops, sometimes I will with family with me but I'll never actually look for clothes/go to buy any or anything ._. what do? also, me going out of the house other than having to for college happens like, 3 times a year [/practically a hikki]
[You're an fagit.] <3
chamber of waking. CHAMBER. OF WAKING. NO. ..NO. THAT IS NOT A GOOD NAME THAT IS NOT. A GOOD NAME ... NO. WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?! JUST... NO. WHAT THE FREAKING HELL MAN?! ..JUST... NO. /leave again now. /curse you makaze. EDIT: ... what the **** is this? WHAT THE **** IS THIS? THAT IS NOT A GOOD IDEA. JUST... WHAT ARE YOU FREAKING DOING?
Come with me I wish to be The one you're with Eternally Take this knife We'll end this strife Forever together In our next life What is more romantic Than a lover's life sacrificed? So I'll build our coffin here for 2 Will you die for me if I die for you? Why are you scared? Is it that you don't care? We have a life to spare So join me in our final dare This death obsession's My new religion Through sweet possession Of my own reminiscion Am I your Opheliac? Or just a guy with romantic knack? I'd write a million words for you But this knife will always ring more true Come with me And you will see I'm in love with you Eternally See this casket For me and you Which was conceived From love most true We'll steal away into the night And end this our eternal plight For in this final breath in death We'll see each other in love's true light. Quickly now For ever I hear Time's winged chariot Hurrying near This well swells up The dark drowns the light Cut short this life And end loves true plight Come with me And we can be In love-bound glee Eternally Come with me And take this knife I'll die for thee We'll die tonight Come with me Why do you wait? You must not flee Our casket awaits…
Also stop distracting me from my religion essay.
what's the difference between excitationand ionisation?
Amaury.. and.. Feenie... Please.. Don't get mad at me or freakout or anything about this but.. I really just.. I think I ****ing love you guys.. Like.. I know I can be really mean but... it's just because I have this all bottled up inside. The thought of just living with you wo makes me almost want to melt in a silly sort of way.. I mean Feenie... You're amusing and you've always been considered a brother to me from LPTP.. And Amauruy.. I feel really bad about the way people treat you.. and I'm sorry Im mean too sometimes but I relly do liek you.. even if I dont seem like it.. so.. please dont be mad.. im sorry.. I.. I really like you.. I... I even had a dream about the two of you last night.. which was.. >w> innapropriate for this forum.
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See thread title. Edited for RvR: For those who do not comprehend, the title implies I am leaving. *the more you know*
After 10 minutes my sides are hurting and I already have coke up my nose.
Considering I tried to end mysef last night I think it's fair to say the point of needing help has been reached. Obviously, my attempt was insuccessful, I was weak, and couldn't go through with it, I just added another 2 openings to my arm, which was an obvious lapse of judgement since my friends have decided its their charge to check my arms daily. That's why I use my thighs instead. Why do I cut? Different reasons, different times. hough the main ones tend to be something along the lines of self blame/self hate driving me to the point of self harm, or just using it as a way to calm myself down, to just make all the stress and hurt go away for a few minutes. And it is only that. A few minutes. But it's worth it, since I hate my body anyway, but that's for later. Undoubtedly, one of the causes of my stress and depression levels is the fact that Im always tired, coupled with my irregular sleeping pattern (sometimes I cant get to sleep before 5am, sometimes I end up asleep at 11pm), and getting up at 6am for the journey to school, which is itself a huge source of my problems, but, again, that is for later. a feeling of a lack of importance, wantedness, and self understanding is evident. I often question who or what I am, which usually, no, invariably leads to me simply being more insecure about not having an identity I can think of as my own. Couple this the the fact I sometimes suffer from derealization, and you can see where yet more stress worms its way into my insignificant little mind. I often find myself sporting the notion that nobody would particularly care or miss me if I were to disappear suddenly, and that most of those surrounding me would actually be glad to hear of it. This is probably due to the fact that I have been a victim of bullying and hatred pretty much my entire life (bar last year, those its started to crop up again), coupled with this, I often view myself as worthless, below others and a burden, a useless waste of space, though for this I place most of the blame on my parents, which shall be discussed briefly later, most likely. In order to fully understand the problems I face every day in attending school you must first understand its nature, I go to a strong Christian school, where I have a Christian tutor and we are brought up to have a christian ethos; needless to say, judgement and understanding are both great and pitiful respectively. Now, add to that a bisexual, ostracism is to be expected. But when one's own tutor, after 5 years of knowing of it and of working with you, tells you to simply stop being bisexual, it is somewhat... irritating, add to that the fact that, as a Christian myself, I'm constantly burdoned with the question of whether it is a sin or not. Add to this the fact that upon at least a weekly basis, fellow students do what they can to make me feel like the black sheep. Even my own best friend occasionally pokes fun at it, although he is a strong atheist, he just happens to also be an elitist. Now, the source of 99% of my stress and depression. i am a closet transender also. In that environment, who's self hate and other such things are leading him towards suicide, and must try to find a balance between depression and being judged. I constantly feel like I am trapped in a community of people who would immediately judge me and hate me, I'm afraid to tell ym friends and family for this very reason, and yet I fear that if I do not, then I may simply give up in the end. For the record, I believe I may have the GID. Based on past experiences (just making it known the I was bisexual caused a school riot wherein I was severely beaten), it is obviously apparent that actively seeking out help or making this known would be a very, very dangerous move. But enough of that for now, onto my parents. My position in my house is basically that of a manservant. I do all the housework make drinks for everyone, and I get to eat and go to school, I dont do that, they don't pay my bus fair and I get leftovers. My self worth and confidence have been reduced to 0 by my parents because of their constant judging, and their constant proclamations that I am useless, worthless, a waste of space, lazy, and other such things. though, at least they are accepting towards my bisexuality. Another recently ended cause of extreme stress and depression, which I have recently terminated, was my re-kindled acquaintance-ship with this fellow, but, as I stated, I recently terminated that frienship. Permanently this time. ..Did I mention that I hate my body? I forget.. But yeah, I don't particularly know why.. I just do. That will do for now I suppose.
riskown . says yes :3 HOKAI I AM GOING INTO TOWN TOMORROW >been putting it off by accident for 2 weeks =| IM GOING IN HANDING IN SOME LEGAL FORMS BUYING A COLLAR AND COMING HOME KLLSHFDA Q_Q and maybe going to cex Christ Er says D: NOT LEGAL FORMS riskown . says >YOU CAN GET GAMES FOR 50P THERE Christ Er says NOOOO going to the cex shop? riskown . says yep Christ Er says woah, that's cheap riskown . says <3 cex shops IKR SO CHEAP <3 lol, innuendos. Christ Er says xD
Why? Spoiler Why? In my life of hatred and lies. I found the One who seemed for me. when it seemed that I was a mistake I saw you there. WhY? have you done this to me? Leading me into the wreck I've become Making life unbearable torturing hatred Why? have you done this to me? When life started looking to the better 'cause of you You left me in my life leaving me with the pain and lies. Hating and consuming in my own loss. WhY? have you done this to me? Leading me into the wreck I've become Making life unbearable torturing hatred Why? have you done this to me? I thought you were the one for me. But now I know it was a mistake. You were my mistake. I was my own mistake. Now I lie here in this pool of blood thinking. Is life worth its pain? Why? Why does it aways lead to pain? When things start to get better I'm always knocked down. And in my sorrow I turn to my last friend It never says no. It helps you deal with your pain. It lies there, wating for you. I lie in this pool of my blood. Turned to the last resort. As my friend, covered in blood, falls to the ground. I feel the last inch of life slipping away. Why? Have you done this to me? Always leading me away. In to my pool of pain. So I found my way to a new pool. And I sleep forever, knowing that, life always leads to my pain. My Abyss Spoiler I hear you calling. I hear them crying. I want to help but. I need to help but. I hear myself calling out. They hear me cry in the darkness. They dont understand. Alone in the abyss of my life. I hear your pain. I know your loneliness. I want to help. I need to help. They dont know me. They dont understand the way I feel. They think they can help but they just make it worse. I live and am alone. The swirling abyss of my life drags on bringing naught but pain. And I cant find a way out of the abyss. I need to help. They cant help me. All alone bearing the pain. You cant live like this, let me help. You're alone I'm alone In the abyss. Alone. Fear Spoiler we feel its power seeping into us holding us back like a leech it stops us and ruins us causing us pain and misery We try to overpower it, but it never leaves us Eating away delving deep into our soul it brings out the worst in us. People say it isn't there but how can we feel it eating away if truly it was not there we would be complete. But remember. It is not the true us it is a mere thorn on the rose of our lives we must overcome it throw it away. It drives us insane It hates us Sometimes it seems like it is us. But I'm here telling you. It's not you, its me. The pit of rage Spoiler Blinded by hatred. friendless and alone. Falling and hating. Into the pit of rage. But know this. Dont fall. Grab my hand. Dont be blinded. See the light. Dont go falling into the pit of rage. Deceitful Lies. Spoiler From a rumour. It spreads like fire. The fire inside burns. pain unleashed. Seemingly trapped with no way out. Yet dont give up. There is a way up. My hand is there to pull you out. These deceitful lies will vanish. For there is true power in love. Life Spoiler It passes by slowly. Is there an end? Is there a point? Why does it just pass by? Like wind in the branches, It comes and goes. But dont lose hope. Theres something at the end. Just give time. We'll go together. Alone. Spoiler I stand in the crossroad. Watching the clouds pass by. Where do I belong. REJECTED BY LIFE. REJECTED BY DEATH. I stand alone. at my crossrroads between joy and pain heaven and hell. Life and death in an endless stream alone. The grass sways peacefully. In the field of my crossroad. In an endless stream of the now. With nowhere to go. Nothing to see. No future, no past Just me. All alone. In my crossroad. Remorseful escape Spoiler Slowly look up at the mirror Viewing a despicable stranger How could something so pure Become something so shameful? Feel the surges of regret Shame, hate and disgust Where did it all go wrong? Surely this isn't me. Look down at the blood stained sink View the cleansing crimson regret Washing your sins away Making you whole again Slowly peek into your eyes See a cold, remote soul staring back at you anhedonically How can something so beautiful Turn so dark and loathesome? Stare back down at the cleansing filth Maybe if you could spill it all Everything would be alright Pull the blade up to your throat Atone for the failures you called your life. Hope? Spoiler Looking back at past successes Victories of a person long gone How could we sink so low? That we cannot even, with a passing shrug do that which before was easy? Looking back at past friendships Bonds which seemed as strong as diamond Viewing the rise and surely the fall even diamond has its breaking point Looking back at old ambitions dreams which seems so easy to reach Watch them all crumble away That human will was easy to breach. Watch the children running by Each a vessel of hope and life How many of these will achieve their dreams? You suppose that only one should suffice Turn around to face your future What things lay await in there? Perhaps riches, fortune, fame and glory Run forwards gladly, the future is waiting The sombre call of forlornness Spoiler If I could find a way to thank you For all the things that you have said The time you wasted so I wont lose The things that we have shared I'd write a million lines for you If only to glimpse this spectrum of emotion I'd sleep on broken glass for you Just not to lose your laugh. I feel I must apologize For not valuing and utilizing The time which you have given to me Now it is up I feel so ashamed so guilt ridden and disdainful That I used it so unwisely. Let go of my hand my friend You have already shut me off If I am truly a boulder on your back Then I would rather I was dead. Forgive me for the failures the shortcomings and the let downs. But remember those memories those perfect memories you confessed we had made. And with a tear in my eye I bid you farewell My friend, my love and my dear, dear saviour. I wish you well for your future endeavours And I thank you for what you have done for me. So go, friend, I will hold you back no longer Au Revoir my dear maki. Au revoir. Why do I love you? Spoiler Why do I love you? Of the many things that elude me This seems the most evasive But suffice it to say That try as I may The answer always escapes me. Is it your changing personality? That in a single moment, The passing of one fateful tide Might suddenly be raised aloft And in the next, might be stricken down. Is it your voice? An odd choice, you might say But one which I choose no less To others it may seem That your voice has no gleam Though to me it raises the heart on high An odd choice to make As it changes oft times But nay, I say that not to its discredit For t'would seem that with each change At the risk of sounding cliché My heart flutters yet more. Is it the power? Though this claim may sound selfish And in a way, it is. Though I speak not of influence, or not of a sort. I speak not of the power to move men and kill hearts Perhaps, in part, but not in whole. The power I speak of is one I well know That with a single glance might reduce me to nothing Yet with another raises me to strengths I have never yet known. One which, when exercised, has taught me to fear But also to love And to cherish, to adore and to trust. But enough of that, at the risk of sounding like this love is vain, for it assuredly is not. I doubt this contributes much yet I feel I must comment On those drawings which never cease to amaze To amuse and to charm Which, though they are but drawings, bring me such joy Which I could view for hours and still never grow tired I am a well known fan Of the works of Michelangelo Yet for a single one of your drawings I would forsake his whole library. Is it the way in which you react to Chris? Both jealous, annoyed and hateful That in a whirl of merriment He and I ignite in an instant Which in others sight Might seem out of spite But is in fact a show of affection. For we know you enjoy it Though you'd never admit it And it makes you seem So cute how you steam. I'm not sure why I love you It's all this and more I can't help but love you And so I implore That it will last forevermore And if I am held to account All this I will shout. So forgive me. I don't know why I love you. I just know that I do. It goes against everything I've known All that I've learned Yet I love you more Than I ever knew I could So believe me when I tell you that I Love You. I'm still pure... Spoiler Knocking at the door again Like a frightened child I hide When will you stop bringing my pain? I suppose I can only hope in time Lie to the friends, lie to the counsellors They never took my innocence I'm still pure as rain Lie to the friends, lie to the counsellors I'm not going mad I'm just losing my mind. I obey and let them have their way Is my existence merely for others pleasure I wish I could just break away But fear is an effective means of control Lie to the friends, lie to the counsellors They never took my innocence I'm still pure as rain Lie to the friends, lie to the counsellors I'm not going mad I'm just losing my mind. I wait up at night, cold and frustrated Fleeting desires and needs most ignominious Did they think it was fun, to embed these needs within me To make me need to satisfy their desires And with a laugh of malice, whisk themselves away? Leaving me waiting up at night, cold and frustrated Lie to the friends, lie to the counsellors They never took my innocence I'm still pure as rain Lie to the friends, lie to the counsellors I'm not going mad I'm just losing my mind Fear is an effective means of control But need is a more effective one I cry out at night, bring my innocence back End this self torturous nightmare Wipe these desires clean. Give me my innocence back Make me pure as rain Give me my dignity back Make me pure again Voices Spoiler I hear her voice, I hear her voice Make it stop, Make it stop. I see her stare, I see her stare Make it stop, Make it stop. I saw you watching me today Judging, despising, condemning I saw your brain turning today All those words you were slowly planning. And I know you see how it breaks me apart As I tear at my ears and pray to be deaf Your constant arrows leaft me with no heart I swear this war will end with death. Today I tried to tear my throat out To spare me from your cursed voice. you should know I'd care to rip your heart out If only I could take that choice... So tell me, mother, do you like mind games? I'll take you on in your own field A battle of mind, of hate, and insanity And whoever dies last, will be the winner. I hear your voice, I hear your voice I'll shut you up, I'll shut you up I see you stare, I see you stare I'll **** you up, I'll **** you up. Funny, how a knife should sing I daresay its a beautiful thing To see the bane of my own life ending with the singing of my knife. Words Spoiler What is a word? A wise word, aptly spoken is like a shining angel reaching out A harsh word, cruelly spoken is like a wretched ant, scratching at the mind A bitter word, hatefully spoken, is like a cancer, eating away at the speaker A loving word, tenderly spoken, is like a refreshing waterfall welling up from within A word is a thing, intangible, invisible. It enters our core and it works away. A word is a tool, a powerful one at that, which can sway armies and conquer hearts. A word is a word and should be used with caution for with one misused word a great many undesired things may happen like the shifting of a single piece of snow causing an avalanche. Therefore, let us think, and use words wisely or we may find ourselves caught in our own avalanche and dragging many others into it also. Through the Valley of Death Spoiler Walking down the path of life Thorns, chains and rocks abound An angel stopped me for a while To ask me why I tried "You're a masochistic, insecure, self doubting little man, why carry on this wretched road, why even give a damn?" I looked the angel in the eyes and asked him why he cared "Tell me, friend, why does this bother you? Does it upset you that I walk along like my path is gold and my gate is pearl. Does it confuse you how I still love others even if they have more than me? I may have little to my name I may be a broken wretch of a man But as long as there's a person I can help A stranger I can love, and a journey I can make I'll walk this wretched road of mine If only for their sake" The angel looked at me a while and bowed his head down low his shoulders dropped as he realized, he was not as great as he thought. "I see now how it comes to be that the wretched are often filled with glee They come to learn the truth of life That with love and selflessness, they find their purpose I thank you friend, you have opened my eyes How could I repay you?" I answered this easily, for I had always known and planned for a question such as this I looked at the angel, and softened my voice "walk your path, and look upon others, with gladness, love and compassion instead that in the breaking of your own prideful chains you might break the chains of others." Untitled Spoiler With the simple movement of one grain of sand, a dune can collapse. With the beat of a butterflies wing, with time, a tornado can form. From one pebble, a multitude of waves can sprout forth. In everything we do we have a profound effect on the world around us, whether we notice it or not, and therefore each and everyone of us are important. In doing good things, in succeeding, and in acting with love, we free those around us to do the same, in breaking our own chains, we also break the chains of those around us. If the snow at the top of a mountain is impure, then so is the stream that will run to the sea, therefore we should purify that very snow, before looking to the sea for the problem. After all, in order for evil to succeed all is required is that good men do nothing. But without first looking to ourselves for that which is not good, how can we then see it accurately within others?
[and asked to pee in his fuel cap o-o]
For my newest life direction I have decided that I wish to somehow put myself inside the Halden prison in Norway, so i can make use of its various facilities. However, I lack the means of actually getting to Norway, plus what crime would I commit, and how could I ensure I go to that particular prison?
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Malicious Genocide says still havent lost Riskown . says whatever man, I'm teelling you you don't have a chance this time .-. go RISK *Riskown . called out RISK! 434 HP, 175 ATK, 181 DEF, 198 SPE, 167 SPC. DARK type. Malicious Genocide says go Furry balls Riskown . says *Malicious Genocide called out FURRY BALLS! 431 HP, 167 ATK, 138 DEF, 152 SPE, 161 SPC. WATER type. *RISK is first. EQUIP striped sweater *RISK equipped STRIPED SWEATER. One with a collar, turtle neck... o-o Malicious Genocide says what the **** Use ball to face Riskown . says *It is not your turn. LOL ITEM rare candy *Riskown . used RARE CANDY. *RISK's ATK mod rose by 99! *RISK's DEF mod rose by 99! *RISK's SPE mod rose by 99! *RISK's SPC mod rose by 99! *RISK's status problem was cured! *RISK restored 434 HP! *RISK: 434/434 HP >=3 Malicious Genocide says Use face**** Riskown . says *FURRY BALLS's FACE**** did 4 damage! *RISK: 430/434 HP use facerape *RISK's FACERAPE did 6867 damage! *FURRY BALLS: 0/431 HP *RISK's DEF mod rose by 1! *Congratulations, Riskown ., you've defeated the opponent! *You earned 891 money. n_n
