In resume: I should leave renders and start making signatures with only stocks XD, the effect is supposed to make like Shadow is in a destroyed city in the night, is very cold, that´s why the freeze-like effect in the BG and in some parts of his body, and as always, there was another effect (FG), but I screwed it, that effect was kinda... Stock dependant, and Shadow didn´t go well with the effect, too, some parts of the clipping masks of the left touches Shadow, like before, I thought it would help the blending. CnC please?
****************************** Just understand You can´t save me now I belong to the dark I can´t be in the light again I have lost every emotion I just don´t want to feel depression It may be hard for me to fade in nothing Still, a part of me wants to be in suffering Everybody tries to change the world But is just a stupid hope Things are still unchanged Is just useless I will put everything behind me They will die as I put them in suffering Everybody tries to confort me But everything is still unchanged No matter how hard you try Nothing will ever happen So lose your hopes This is what I learned from so long Oh forgiving darkness With my sadness and rage I want to throw it all away I want to leave everyone behind me, I will never tear again I want to become one with the dark I want to be wrapped in black I want to destroy everyone who opposes me I will be evil not matter how it takes Nobody can break me now Nobody can tear me now I will show no emotions Instead I´ll destroy Having hope is stupid Darkness is the only truth So join the darkness Or fall in death You can´t save me now I suffered because everyone, even you sometimes This time I will not return I´ll destroy anyone who opposes ****************************** This is my last depressing poem, I think in making something complete different, when I have an idea. This poem was inspired in the theme "Throw it All Away" from Sonic Adventure 2 (Shadow´s theme), to be honest, if a character from Sonic could describe me, it would be Shadow.
V2: ^Part of me says that the splatters didn´t matched this style =/^ Maded it with a clouds (BG) stock, a render and lots of filters and adjustements layers. Too, some part of the left and right wings is covered a little with the clouds stock, I thought it would help the blending. CnC please?.
Since I haven´t touched the pentool in days, this time I practiced the curves: V2: Everything maded in pentool, except for a little detail, the pattern in the left and the circles. CnC please?
I am a memory that is going to be forgetted *************************** Nobody wants me here Everybody wants me to leave I will ovey them Because I even hate myself I question all that I have done Is my fault? But I can´t change what I did before If they want me to leave, then I won´t say "No" Is the better for them, who will ever care for me? Everything is erazed now Everything dies and fades I will dissapear too I have been too rough? I am just like a memory Just I fade in oblivion Nobody wants to remember me Anyways I don´t deserve it What this means? Why everybody hates me!? What I did, I deserve this!? Is my punishment for nothing My heart is arrowed in fire Fire to soon consume it Nobody helps me to put out the flames So alone I will die Everything in now blurred and torn I shall die now I won´t stop this Because is my punishment for nothing Nobody wants me anyways And too I hate myself So I will make everybody happy Happy with my death I remember everything a last time I do it before die I remember how painful is my life I want that the flames kill me now I feel my heart being consumed in fire That this fire doesn´t kills me painfully I want a quick death Because everyone wants to forget me Before I die I want to say "Sorry" For everything that I had done But I don´t deserve another chance *************************** Do you ever feel like nobody wants you alive? I feel that lots of times, and... ^This is true^ ^This too is true^ And I know, the title is the same of another of my poems, I didn´t noticed that.
V2: Blaze from Sonic Rush, I seriously love this style, and I wanted to try it again. CnC please?
************************* I will never cry I won´t be weak Just stupid emotions Who needs them? I am sad I should say But happens what happens I won´t cry I hate myself I hate my stupid heart I hate my emotions I wish I could be cold If I cry I will be weak I will hate that weakness I will hate myself I won´t be weak I won´t be defeated I know I will be weak I won´t cry, my heart will be dry I am sad I am crying in the inside I won´t show it I will be strong I want to free all But then I will be attacked Attacked because I am weak I won´t show it, I will sucess ************************* Yes, I am sad now but I won´t cry, crying is for weaklings.
V2: ^Added some depth^ V3: ^Added FG effects^ Believe it or not, the background was maded with three smudged C4Ds and clipping masks, there are more of those than you think. REAL CnC please?
NOTE: I am not angered with anyone, just I fell like writing this type of poem. ***************************** Rage, destruction Death, corruption Is the only thing that fills this hole This hole inside my heart All the pain I had to stake Now you will all fell my rage I see chaos for everyone And death for whoever who tries to stop me now Everyone drived me crazy So much happiness is making me sick You all now die And I fill this hole in my heart Making others suffer makes me happy So prepare to feel my agony Live is ironic, isn´t it? I will not stop, I will kill You are maded me insane Hear my roar and my rage You will all dissapear in oblivion Die, suffer and cry my in destruction Just chaos and hopeless anger You all will see my rage I will destroy everything near me I will kill, I will obliterate everything *****************************
**************************** I live in misery and sadness My true essence is darkness I belong to the dark And my heart is black I am not a good hearted person I am black, I just cause chaos Just remember that dark memory It makes my heart rotting Nothing in this world in wrong, everything is right And so I destroy everything, this is my style of life My heart was already quivered I am black and destructive This was the last time being happy Now I understand I don´t have nobody at my side I am alone, and like that I will die Alone, without nobody, but I will not cry This is what I deserve And this I will accept This my destiny I will not cry, I will accept it Everything burns in my rage Everything dies in fire Everything returns to darkness Everything fades in sadness I love my misery It never lefts me I can only count having it Always around and close to me I love to destroy To cause chaos I understand now That making people suffer brings me joy I love the darkness Is the only thing that understands me Is what understands my suffering Is the only thing that conforts me **************************** Whoever thinked I was thinking about Riku while writing this phails, I was thinking in Mephiles The Dark from Sonic Next-Gen, and I am depressed now so I can´t think too well in this moment.
************************* My life is meaningless again Everything dies and fades I want to end like that now I want to die right now I want and I like to suffer I don´t have another style of life Suffering is for what I live Is what only makes me happy Is this the desire that I can´t deny But my stupid emotions always will slow me down If I haven´t this stupid heart I couldn´t feel and then die I always knowed my happiness will last some moments Some moments and then return to the depression and suffering Being happy and cheerful is worthless Because I know my sadness would hit me then harder Hapiness is just a stupid thing Like being a cheerful being Being happy doesn´t bring you happiness Making others suffer is what truly retires the sadness Don´t trust in nobody Because that will end in hurting you Don´t ask noboby for help Because that will only make you weak If you want to survive in this world You heart must be closed and cold If you can´t do that Then you deserve to die Don´t feel happiness, don´t be a stupid Because that will end in suffering Don´t make friends, don´t be a idiot Because they will end hurting you Understand, who will care for you? Nobody will ever do They only care for themselves So do the same and ignore them Those are the only truths of the life So don´t trust nobody and undestand: "Nobody will ever care for you" So be prepared or live in your own suffer ************************* ^..... Nothing else to say than that^
**************************** I am alone I don´t have nobody I feel like I was nothing From inside my heart is rotting Everybody left me I will suffer, this is my destiny Simple curiosity Why everybody left me? I am alone in this world I don´t have nobody at my side I will die withouth nobody caring This is what I deserve, what I have Is it me? The problem They I will get rid of my life And then you can be happy now I don´t care anymore about me As long as everyone is happy I will be Try to hurt me, I will not defend If that makes you happy, I will understand I can suffer, I can cry I don´t care anymore about my life I can take pain, I can die As long as you are happy I don´t care anyways **************************** Sorry, I really need to get rid of that last bit of emoness somehow >.<.
***************************** Shadows of the past They always chasing me down They always damaged my heart But I won´t let them now Now that I already set me free I won´t let they trap me again I will fight with the shadows of my past I will beat them, I will watch the tommorow They can´t beat me down They won´t win me now They are like a million faces I´ve recognized them all Now I have something to love I won´t be afraid, so come on! I won´t cry, I won´t be scared I will fight and I will defeat them They can sneak up from behind But still I will crush them all They are like a monster That feeds with my sorrow I won´t let them trap me now I won´t let them make my heart hollow I am not scared of my past Now that I have something to care about They won´t chain me down I will destroy them all I will look at the future I won´t drown in my past I show everyone who I am So leave me for once at all! I will show them what I can do Prepare to dissapear in the oblivion! What I have in my two hands in enought for me I will end this now, I am not scared nor afraid anymore My heart will not be drown in my depression I will not be afraid, I will end victorious Time to fight So bring it on! I will end this once and for all I won´t let you torture me anymore! *****************************
No tuts used, I just was playing around with the GIMP some days ago and I discovered this, everything I made it myself, thought the form of this is dependant of the C4D that is used at the start of this background, I used some tricks from some tutorials like some Gradient Maps, but the 90% or so is mine, too, I used this background in a tag: I think it needs more sharpening to give that touch of texture, but anyways. CnC please?
First of all, I am talking about ALMOST everything, but I can´t write that so I writed Everything: ************************* Everything at my side dies Everything wants me to cry Of this I can´t take no more That´s why I want to end this now What I did!? Why I deserve this!? I won´t allow this With my hands I´ll set me free I won´t suffer anymore Everything aside is torn But I won´t allow this I will stop my suffering I resisted over the time But everything trapped me from inside I will set me free now I won´t allow this anymore Try to take everything from me I won´t allow this Try to kill me from inside I won´t let this, I will step aside Everything wants me to suffer This shall be stopped I will fight for what I love So bring it on! I will take another try This time I will not lose Let me show you what I´m made of I will not lose, I will not be torn Try to damage me Try to take control of me I won´t let you I will show you what I´m made of Let me show you who I am And what I´m here for I won´t live in misery I won´t allow this My life will not be meaningless I will fight, I will not end lifeless This won´t end like before I will end this now *************************
********************** Roses are red Like blood on the floor Is time to end Is only a matter of time Everything shall fade away Very soon I will dissapear I just a matter of time A matter and then die I don´t feel like dying now But my end will come soon Everything dies And now is my time Very soon I will end my suffer Everything is torn and cutted That is how is my heart Torn, destroyed and breaked I will not suffer anymore In the place I will be now No more sadness or depression Just happiness and joy Everything dissapears from my mind Everything dissapears as I die Everything fades away Everything flies away I could simple forget everything But everything keeps pressing me Like walls trapping me I won´t fight, I will die This is what I deserve Thought that I didn´t do nothing But I will accept it Is my punishment for nothing I just wanted to live But everything wanted me to die So I will fulfill their wish I will fulfill they task withouth think ********************** ....................... I don´t know what to think now.
