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Well, it's went from bad to worse. I soon figured out that I had sleep apnea, and now I believe that i might have asthma. It's harder for me to breathe lately, i feel tightness in my chest, I started wheezing lately, had more trouble sleeping with my apnea, and and I can't breathe in as much anymore...

So i went to Yahoo Health, and looked up the symptoms, some of which I had without knowing it could have to do with asthma...

So, I really want to go to the clinic, but i can't tell my mom?

and of course, someone will be like "Tell your mom, you're stupid if you don't (my usual response but i don't care xD)"

but the thing is, everytime I tell her something is wrong with me, she'll say "nothings wrong with you, it's all in your head"
but when i told her today i randomly started choking in 3rd period and asked her to come get me,, she thought it was just where i had lack of sleep and where i spent 80 minutes in a 100 degree gym.... but i don't think so, because i had a short sleeve shirt on and I wasn't really burning up with my hair up..

advice anyone? And don't just reply back "tell your mom" because that won't help anything...

I can see the lights, shining bright in the dark sky.
The sparkles and crystals blind me, as the water rushes from the deep blue sky.
I can barely feel you. You aren't there to touch. You're a blinding light, wiping away from the air. Your hands aren't there for me to grab, dance with, or kiss.
The white cloth drags behind me, and the cold rain showers my shoulders.
It's too big, and weighed down, even for me.
Layers upon layers of white beauty.

And I can see you fading back into existence. Only barely, but it's there.
Your eyes are so blue, and your cheeks are flushes crimson, in a beauty shade
that I cannot bare to look at. Your hand grazes over mine, but your hand fades around, like the crystal sand on a warm tropical beach.

And we're dancing, to the piano playing softly in my head. The rhythm matches
the thunder and lightning crackling up in the sky. The rooftop is flooded but we don't give a care. I hold onto you, afraid you're going to disappear, and that you're arms will disappear from my shoulders. I hold onto you so tight to keep you close, until you push me away, in the middle of our dance.

The dance, my dance... is ruined. You don't care, but why play with my emotions? Do you like seeing me put through this torture?

And the blade you pull out, stained blood red. I finally feel the blood rising to me. I quiver, and you shake. It wasn't a dance... it was your fight, and my dance. You lie to me, to kill me. I give you my trust, to dance with you.

I see now why you push me away. You didn't want me to die on your knife. The rain isn't on my cheeks anymore, but my tears are. All I wanted was from you was love, but you give me hell.

Life is so far, and so close. Death is so near, yet so far. I'm on my knee's, begging for death as i feel nothing. I thought it would be over one day, and one day soon. my life has been a happy one, and now, it's time for me to let go. It's time for me, to stop trusting you, and to let the rain wash away all my sins.

Your love, is what killed me.

OKay, I'm bored.. anyone wanna play Re5 on xbox? =D <3333

I watched the first 5 seconds of 2 girls 1 cup...

*gags* no more T^T