Tifa L.

I contacted a UFO by wrighting UFO in big letters on the beach, a couple hours before a fireworks display with big booms and bright bangs happened. lol it was epic. I saw a flashing disk like object in the sky, an hour before the explosions were going to happen. Oh, and the light thing did not explode, so it was not a fire work. Oh, and nevt to the giant UFO I wrote in the sand, I drew a giant foot with four toes lol XD

lol probably why the computer is in my way lol XD Any other interesting thing come to mind? lol XD (even though there is only one thing left, it is nice to ask lol)

Well, I don't know. I believe that almost anybody can change for the better. Thinking like what you said is kinda negative y'know. It takes time though to actually get to a point where you'll start changing yourself for the better.

Anybody can change, you just have to
1) fully want it and
2) see if the change is beneficial and won't change your whole being.

I've learned all these things by living my life through hard situations so yeah, believe me if I say that it is possible.

Yay! Family resemblance! XD I would bear hug you if there werent a computer screen in my way :laughing-smiley-004

That's normal human behaviour. No one likes to show their weakness. However, to overcome/weaken that weakness so to speak, you'll have to accept it since that weakness is also part of you and therefore is one of the building blocks that makes you you. It takes situations as depressing like the one you experienced to actually learn these things y'know. You shouldn't think of them as evil and depressing situations but as oppurtunities to strengthen yourself as a person. I don't say that I'm capapable of thinking like that, to tell the truth, I also tend to only think of them as depressing moments but this is how we should approach these kind of situations.

I promised kelly I would try to visit her next summer at an anime con in London XD She ordered me to ask my parents, and I said I would lol. They will probably think i am insane. Though, I kinda am lol

Aww that's sad. I hope that get's better too! But I'm sure it will, wounds need time to heal but they heal, that's a certainty :).

I avoid any pictures I have from her. Everything I have from her, like birthday gifts, postcards, I put away in my closet, out of my sight. That way, I can't be confronted with the past.

What, if I may ask, is your next preferance? :D

Hmm yeah, I can understant that you don't feel that good about a decision like that. I'm glad you're over it though, means you got stronger out of it n.n.

The only thing that kinda hurts me these days is when I see a picture of us from one year ago, when everything was still cool y'know, that I really miss her.. But as I said, if she can't change back, then I don't need her anymore.

Yeah well, I refuse to shed a tear for her. Alot of people are thinking now that I'm regretting this decision I made, while in fact, even though it was a very hard decision at that, it was also a very smart one. I'm not gonna sit and let myself being used by someone who, in a way, I don't even know. I kept pushing myself to give her the best friend I could be while she did nothing the last few months. In that case my decision is very 'simple', I only spend my time on people who spend the same amount of time on me, period. If that's not the case, they can go out of my life.

I hope you are over the situation you had there ;/

Thankyou :D Not bad for cheapy $12 XD And okay. Sure :)

Exelent choice madam XD http://www.kh-vids.net/attachment.php?attachmentid=26926&d=1310351151 (camera adds 10 lbs XDD) Sadly, by law, it cannot be real. it only lasted a few weeks lol XD I cant get a real one for about three years, and to get this exact one would cost $800 XD

Exactly. She even said 'yeah I know we kinda parted ways and we aren't as close as we used to be, but I keep changing, I want to move on with my life. I have a very busy life now. We can still be friends but bf's isn't possible anymore'. And that's coming from a 16-year old, I mean, c'mon?

I'm not kidding, she has become one selfish b*tch who even doesn't care anymore about her closest friends (yeah, I'm not the only one. I'm just the only one who has the balls to actually stand up to her). I freakin' talked her out of a suicidal situation, when she had problems, I called her myself to calm her down.

Really, I don't mind losing her in the state she's know because I think she ain't worth crap anymore but I hate this outrageous and unthankful way of handling towards me.

lol so, anyways, before the site went out right from under our feet, I was going to tell you more about all the epic stuff lol. what do you want to hear more about first? XD

Yeah, I know right... Change can be a good thing but if they change in a bad way and forget who they truly are, in that case change is a murderer of the true person inside somebody y'know. I really don't know who this person is, but I'd really like to see my bf again, it's like she doesn't have an own opinion anymore too. All of what she is now is based on personalities of her new friends.

I'm sorry to hear that too ;/. Yeah well, I thought, if I can't count on you and you won't change now, knowing what I've done for her in the past, then I can't ever trust you again. She didn't even think she was wrong, I was the one that was over exaggerating. I was furious when she said that.

Yeah I'm ok, not depressed at all but I just hate that she made me do this y'know. I gave her a choice, be like she used to be and act like a friend or I'd end it, you chose not to change back so yeah, I had to put an end to it. But I'm glad I did it in a way because she just isn't the same person I befriended with.. It sucks big time ;/

Meh, have been better. Having a big fight with my bf and well, I don't think it's going to be solved because of her stupid, egocentric behaviour. I posted alot of new poems too, probably because of that fight that I had to endure.

So yeah, not doing so good here. Although I'm proud of myself having the balls to confront her with her silly behaviour, me kinda ending this friendship must've been one of the hardest decisions I've made in my entire life.

Somewhere I hope it does get solved but meh, I just don't see it happening..

All my epicness blew the site rather than your mind...... Awesome I think? XD :lol:

Since the last time we spoke, I watched fire works, went to the beach, contacted a UFO, put in another unexciting detial here, got a tattoo, had lunch, and I am going to ask my mother if I can go to the UK for a visit in about a year XD. Oh, and unexciting detial here so your mind is not blown. XD lol