Tifa L.

Well I'm still trying to tell everybody. It may take a while*Sighs* O well... But enough of my problem how's was your day today

hey what has been happening

Um I guess so... Well Ihope so anyway

Yea you were right. That's why I did it

Well I think that Its working. I'm starting to tell all those on my friends lists like I said I should

What about you? gone to that concert yet?

I've been good, I've been shoping for stuff. (food, new pair of shoes, and trying to get kingdom hearts 2 final mix for a U.S. ps2)

hey what up

Hello! how are you?

You are 100% right about that. But saying somethings that my make people think twice about you. And then telling them how I feel is... something I'm gonna do right now. Thank you once again

OOO well that's good. But I think that the best thing for me to do is not even say anything at all. Cause wen people get worked up over me. I feel so bad. Cause then the thing that I'm trying not to do which is make them worry. Is what's gonna happen... Then you are right cause I can't keep this up forever.Cause then more people may catch on, which will then cause something that I don't want to happen

And you didn't get me mad. I feel that is wat I'm doing to you.

I noo but that's the thing. This proves that I have been lying about how I feel and has gotten those I care for. To mistake me y feelings

CTR even thinks that I must be a good actor. Damn I really did it this time

That I am nothing but the biggest liar ever. They knew that I was trying to play it off. But didn't say anything so that I wouldn't feel even worse about it at all. So now it makes me look stupid that I din't see it before. I can't belive it

Yep that's true I finally have gotten what the 2 (well maybe more than that) were trying to show me

I think that I will just get it all back. My confidence, and lose this habit of mine. And for this I want to thank you.^^ ^^

Using all these people that I really care for. And who care for me . I haven't been soo honest to them. So they have a flase pic of what my emotions are.

Noo you don't have to be sorry for me. Its ok really... And its fine really I now understand that this is a big mistake

The fact is that I think that I fear people kindness towards me. I've been like this wen I was growing up. Not that I'm saying that I take people's bs cause I don't. But when those are kind to me I feel like if I'm kind back or try to return the favor. I think that they think that I'm just doing it soo that w can be even. So that's y I've been hididng my true feelings. That's the reason And you may think that I'm dumb, stupid or wat ev but. That's truth... This is the main reason I try to avoid long talk, or things that have to do with being kind towards me. I'm thankful for it, but um I just can't take it for some reason. And its really starting to piss me off