Daxa~

you de-reped me because i was speaking figuratively... wow

Daxa my dear, you're participating in the Halloween musical thing! You can't imagine my anticipation for your solo :=D:

Your signature is mystifying...
And I just noticed you join in the month of my birthday, which makes us so much more suited to be NomBuddies <3

Yeah well, I love helping people too, and ironically, I can help people with the same problems that I have but I can never help myself.. really frustrating at times actually

And it's ok, I was going to sleep too so no worries :)

Sorry I bothered you with this again, I hate talking about it with other people since I've had months that I only talked about that y'know, kind of want to move on. Thanks for listening Danu really, thank you :)

'night :)

I think so.. well, I have lots of time to think about it since I'm home until november, that time to think could be good or bad, we'll see I guess :)

I know, and I want to keep her as a friend but at the same time I'm hurting myself by doing that, waiting would be the same thing, I've done that in the past with other girls and at the end I was just a social mess, couldn't really talk to girls anymore which was really awkward too.

Yeah, love can be a blessing and a curse

I really don't know what to do. There were months that I didn't really think about that anymore and I reeally though I had moved on but I guess not, I mean, I get soo freakin' jealous even if I see a picture of her with some other guy or something y'know, and I'm not a jealous guy so that says enough.

And I don't know what she means with those feelings or if she's aware of them but to me it just feels strange that aside from the regular 'i love you' nothing has changed, I mean, we still meet eachother at regular base and she's all secret about it to her parents even though she have already seen me and don't hate me or anything, in fact her mom was very nice to me when I first met her. It just all feels strange in some way and other people have said the same thing but I just keep having feelings for her in some way and that prevents me from meeting other girls y'know since I'm still not over her.

I'm not in a search for a girlfriend or anything but it's really frustrating that I'm still stuck with her..

Haha xd

I don't know, I mean, we already have talked about it so many times + it has been so long already.. and I really do think I love her but what good is it to love someone if they don't love you back y'know, at least not in the same way. It's just feels strange to me that I keep getting these signal from her, I mean, or she's in fact giving signals to say that she's interested once again or I'm just seeing things that aren't there but both ways, there's something wrong y'know.

I really hate these kind of situations..

Well, I think when I was travelling by train or bus to school. Nah, besides, you can't get sick from being out in the cold ^^

I talk to her almost everyday but I haven't talked about that particular subject but when I was in the hospital, I was alone for a very long time and then I begin to think about everything, the past etc. and yeah, I just miss the way it was before y'know and I sometimes get the feeling she wants to be with me again, then at other times it's the exact opposite and I kind of get the feeling she wants to keep me in a position between best friend and boyfriend... I mean, I feel so comfortable when I'm with her etc. and there hasn't changed that much since we were in love I mean, the only difference is that we don't say 'I love you' to eachother anymore but we still go on dates at regular basis, we even went to a restaurant last month I mean, it just feels more than just friendship to me..

Maybe I'm just imagining things though, ugh, I feel so pathetic in a way, I mean, it's already been more than a year since that 'break-up' and I'm still thinking about it ;/

I had a very fierce pneumonia, there was also a small chance for tuberculosis. I have to stay home until the 10th of november to fully recover from this but I'm happy I'm recovering :)

Nah, still confused, the girl (you know, the one I already talked about, the one I had almost a relationship with) is still haunting my mind..

Love you too (:

Not so good actually, was in the hospital for a week ;s

And I'm kind of confused the last few weeks, mostly because I had some time alone to think about stuff, bleh

Hey you, long time no chat :)

How're you doing? :)

Hey.
Hey you.
Yes you.
Reading this.
The nerve of some people.

WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME.

I'm not a form of wildlife! I'm the farthest thing from a de-
Oh. Nevermind.

'tis quite alright

Ah I see..I was very confuzzled

You girl..tut tut

Good god..