Misty.

I know this is a little sudden, and strange, and random and aiohaiohiogha...And I'm actually legitimately afraid of posting it here in the spamzone for everyone to see...This is so bad, I'm shaking right now...But I really can't do this anymore? I don't even know. I just. Really need to tell you something, and I'm really sorry, but it needs to be said here. Everyone needs to know, not just how I feel, but the conclusions I've come to about myself and how I feel about you.

I've had a lot of trouble with my sexuality since age 11. My feelings are pretty confusing. I go back and forth between males and females and while I've tried to suppress it (see: FuzzyBlueLights), I've realized that the only reason I've been clinging to males is because of pressure from family, some friends, and society. This is really hard for me to say, and really embarrassing and nerve-wracking but...Misty, you've helped me realize that I may actually be a lesbian...I've never really felt the way I feel for you for anybody else. Especially not a man.

I don't know. It's really hard for me to accept and I don't even know when it started. I used to be afraid of you, not just before I became a staff member, but also a bit into it. You always seem so serious and intimidating. It wasn't until recently that I discovered how gentle you really are. I admire a lot of what you do and I hope to have your skill and competence someday. You're the reason I decided to learn HTML and the reason I try to be the sort of staff member that I am. That admiration and intimidation started to turn into infatuation at some point...I don't know. Every time I see you log on, I get excited. Whenever you message me on Skype or something, my heart starts pounding in the best way.

I have honestly never felt this way before for a male. Everytime the feeling for you swells up in my heart, I try to force it down and ignore it. I've been fighting it for so long, I'm so scared of everything...But not anymore. I really want you to know. I really need to be brave right now. Please, understand that.

You're just so amazing. Talented, pretty, funny, intelligent. I love your sense of humor, and your... interesting taste in music, haha. Just everything...

I spoke with Fuzzy about it last night, and he just wants me to be happy. Now that you know...Now that everyone knows...Maybe I can stop pretending to be who I'm not. Maybe I really can finally find my own happiness. I've been bottling this up for so long and struggling so bad with everything.

I love you, Misty. I'm eternally grateful to you. The things you've taught me...The time I've spent with you on staff. Even if you don't feel the same, I need you to know that. You mean a lot to me, and I'll never forget you or all that you've done. Thank you so much.

 

MiYn OTP .

 

Jayn what the actual ****

I mean I have a major crush on RvR but this is ridiculous.

 

Don't stand between true love.

 

Dear lord, Jayn, dear, you're so brave for this, I think I might cry of either a broken heart or admiration.

 

No. I understand, whenever RvR talks to me specifically, my Kokoro goes doki doki ; ~ ;

 

And tonight, on KH-Vids...

 

Well someone just took it from cute and romantic to creepy...

 

I see what you did there.

In regards to the OP, Jayn, this was very brave of you, and I'm proud of you.

 

I think the whole gesture is very sweet but I don't understand why you didn't just PM her. But good for you for being brave.

 

Can't you just be happy?

 

Must you negate what I say.

 

I'm just asking. I mean, we've got people announcing their love for others and you're just overanalysing it.

 

I basically congratulated Jayn for being brave to come out like this publicly and I'm over analyzing? Whatever I'm not starting something on a thread like this.

 

...

I'm happy for you Jayn, I really am, and that's a lot for me to say considering how heartless and inconsiderate and intolerant I am. I'm not going to say much else considering I will probably get flamed for what I just said. Just...yeah this took a lot of guts. Well done.

 

Jolly good show.

 

I approve of all of this.

And that's rare for a miserable bastard like myself.

 

...Just don't break her heart, Misty...

 

At least she'll truly satisfy her.